What are you seeking?

Jesus turned and saw them following and said to them, "What are you seeking?" John 1:38

I can just see Jesus looking me in the eyes, saying "What do you want from me? What makes me different than anyone else? Do you truly believe I am the One who came to save you?" I think Jesus is asking real Faith and trust of the disciples even before they begin to follow Him. "Are you sure you want to do this? I cannot offer you worldly material gifts, and I do not offer all the answers, but if you really trust me, and trust who I am then...Come and you will see."

3 years later, Jesus still says the same simple things to his followers..."Come and eat."

"Jesus said to them, 'Come and have breakfast.' Now none of them dared ask him, 'Who are you?' They knew it was the Lord." John 21:12

All day I could not get this picture out of my mind of Jesus glancing at me over his shoulder saying "Jennie, what are you seeking? What do you want from me?" I went running and over and over again His voice echoed in my ears. What am I seeking from Jesus? Why do I follow Him every day? I thought long and hard how I would answer Him and I think all I could say would be, Jesus I want life.

I want life to the fullest. Its almost like that childhood excitement you get when you got the coolest new toy for Christmas. You spend all day and the next few weeks just trying to learn how to use it. I feel like God made me to be this intricate toy, full of many gifts and talents and I have yet to even begin knowing myself and the potential I have for God to use me. I want to follow Jesus to have life to the fullest, to let Him mold me into the best that I can be and that is into His own image. I want to learn to be like Him and to never stop trying to get to know Him like He knows me.